I find it hard to come up with the words to say this,

But there are feelings deep within me

That are turning violently.

I want to speak these feelings,

So prominent yet unrecognized,

I cannot bring them out.

I want the world to recognize these feelings

To understand where I am,

In this moment, know and see the path I have walked.

Respect that I am going the direction 

that I carved for myself, built from the world I've seen.

Troubles I've faced.

Pain from trying so hard to follow others.

I hope someone can respect or understand my motives, my way, my cultivation,

And see them not as contrived or vain,

But as a love letter to the self.